Guinevere

I cannot believe that my last post here was almost two years ago.  Where has the time gone?  So, so much has happened.

A week or so ago, I received a spam message to one of the first blog posts I wrote here.  Before I deleted it, I read through the post- and succumbed to a surprising amount of nostalgia afterwards.  I couldn't believe how much different that girl sounded from the one I like to think I am today.  She seemed so strong and together, while I struggle to make it through whole days without eating a giant helping of self-doubt.  Back then, the blog was my therapist, the place I could go where I could just write and vent and not have to worry about the backlash.  I haven't enjoyed that feeling in a long time.  More importantly, I started writing here because there were things that needed to be said, that needed to change.  And change they did.

So I'm back.  For how long, I'm not sure, but for now I know that I need this again.  I need to hold myself accountable for the things that have happened, for the person that I am.  Mistakes and all.